Iapos;m going through a bit of a social and personal transition. I feel as though I have been shut down for years and someone finally flipped the "on" switch. Iapos;ve been going out, talking and flirting, with everyone I meet. I havenapos;t felt embarrassed or shy, really at all, in any situation Iapos;ve been in. I feel like I have some new-found confidence that I only wish I had a year ago. Maybe things wouldapos;ve turned out differently. ... Someone told me that for a week I should just be as confident as I am, not fake it or anything. So I have been. And itapos;s the best advice Iapos;ve gotten in a long time.
Iapos;m holding out. Iapos;ve been dating around (and sleeping around?) for a few months and Iapos;ve realized itapos;s not for me. Not that I think thereapos;s anything wrong with it - hell, I wanted to be the type of girl who can date around, but Iapos;m a relationship girl. I canapos;t change that, no matter how many other parts of me start to change/evolve. Iapos;m holding out for someone I really care about this time. And itapos;s not like Iapos;m waiting for this magical person to appear - they already have. Itapos;s just... The timing isnapos;t right (yet.) It will be, one day, and this time I intend on being completely ready for it.
Itapos;s hard, though. I donapos;t know that Iapos;ve ever really been prepared for anything, no matter what it was, so this time Iapos;m trying to prepare myself for the possibility that... I may need to really be the person Iapos;ve always wanted to be in order for anything to work out. I need to be more confident, but naturally, not just faking it. I need to be more accepting and less jealous. I need to naturally come to these conclusions/outcomes, or else things will never work out the way that Iapos;ve always dreamed of. ... Dreamt? Dreamed. Whatever.
Iapos;m not sending out a letter today.
My head is too muddled right now for me to focus on things that are happening. But tomorrow Iapos;ll send a long one.
On a completely unrelated note, I really enjoy having male friends. Especially ones that arenapos;t around just to get something... Extra. I spent a few hours at Mikeapos;s house last night and really, honestly enjoyed the company of a guy. It was nice to not have to worry about flirting, being cute and coy, or if there was going to be a physical part to the evening. It was nice to just watch "Closer" and play Guitar Hero and talk about things. Between him, TB and JH and SD, Iapos;ve got it pretty made when it comes to guy friends. I canapos;t put names here, because I think it would upset a few people. ... Just another thing that needs to be worked on.
This is the most open Iapos;ve been about my feelings in a while.
I donapos;t think thereapos;s any reason for me to... Hide things or apologize for anything anymore. Iapos;m starting to feel pretty pleased with myself and my choices/decisions.
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